Stubble and Stuff

"...wilt thou pursue the dry stubble?" - Job 13:25

Wow... I cannot believe how difficult it is to write this blog entry. It feels like I'm trying to ride a ten-speed uphill with rusty sprockets and a loose chain. Chug, chug.

Chug.

I'm posting again today after lots of thinking about it and meaning to get around to it and hoping to do it and wanting to do it and... well, you get the idea. I'm not procrastinating. I'm just waiting for the right time.

2008 has been so full of stuff that absolutely had to take priority (adoption stuff, parental stuff, school stuff, church stuff, work stuff) that I have managed to stuff my life full with no time to just write. To pray. To think. To ponder.

To be.

I feel I am losing myself in stuff.

Today I am beginning - once again - to review my life and see what's important, what's more important, what's less important, and what just isn't important at all. This isn't the first time I have attempted this exercise. In fact, it isn't the tenth time. And, every time, just when I think I've got it down... along rolls a pile of stuff, just crying out, Don't forget me! I'm important!

And I'm back off the wagon again.

It is time to get healthy again. Time to find time to relax. To invest in my beautiful wife and son. To write. To draw. To pray. To connect.

To be, as opposed to being stuffed.

I think I know what I need to do. Stay tuned.